You have to take the good with the bad.
If you read this blog at all, you know with what I struggle. Sometimes, it kicks my ass. Recently, it has done just that.
But, you know? I still have humor in my heart. I still have love on my lips. Will these attributes stay forever? Sure they will. I have to make a major change, though. Can I do it? I can. Will I do it? I must.
I have been off of work for the past two days (daze)--unpaid--with a "stomach issue." I have peeved people off and--generally, generously--I have been but a bump on a log.
I sense a lot of wasted potential, here. (That was sarcasm.)
Do y'all get sick of hearing this drivel? I know I do. I also know that you three or four readers, too, get sick of hearing this drivel.
I'm trying to feel optimistic. I am trying to feel good about myself. Sometimes, it is hard gosh-damned work.
But, as I mentioned above, I *do* have Faith. I *do* have Love in my life and Laughter behind my lips. I just...do. No matter how much I allow myself to beat myself into the ground, I maintain hope and faith.
I know--*know*--I have work to do. Much, much work.
But I have faith in God and, plus, I have faith in myself.
I will not allow my downturns, my failings, my uber-pecadillos, to drag me down. I just won't.